
As Ralph Waldo Emerson once stated:
"Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could; some blunders and absurdities have crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; you shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense. "
It has been raining here lately and for some reason, listening to rain makes my mind wander. I could listen to it and think for hours. One of the things I pondered as I was soothed by the tapping sounds of the rain drops was my New Year's Resolution and what it will be this year. Up to this point, my resolutions have all been the same...lose weight, eat healthy etc, very similar to everyone else's I'm sure, and we all know how long that usually lasts.
For the past 1 1/2 years, most of you that have read my blog from the beginning know that I have been recovering from a major cardiac incident. I became obsessed with recovery, as well I should have, making life changes in my quest for survival. It was actually the reason I started this blog, to fill my days when I could not do much else. One of the first things I had to change was my way of thinking. At first I worried daily and hoped I would see the next sunrise. I had to gain control of that thinking quickly because it is very easy to become paranoid and unhappy with the days that remain if one dwells on thoughts of expiring on a daily basis. The second thing I had to change was my eating habits. That was a major issue for me as I am a person who loves to cook and bake (and eat), and when what you enjoy most suddenly has to be revised for your survival, depression can quickly set in. But...onward and upwards I went! Tackling my issues and being to stubborn to give in.
So, while being hypnotized by the sound of the droplets spattering on the roof and pondering the last couple of years while thinking of my next resolution I realized, why be saddled with this thing called life expectancy? Of what relevance is such a statistic? Am I to concern myself with an allotment of days I never had and was never promised? Must I check off each day of my life as if I am subtracting from an imaginary hoard of hours? No, I will add each day of my life to my treasure of days lived. And with each day, my treasure will grow, not diminish. After all, none of us are promised tomorrow and if we don't appreciate today it will be gone and we will have wasted opportunity. One of the most tragic things I know about human nature is that all of us tend to put off living. I know I've done it more often than not. We all dream of some magical rose garden over the horizon, even though we know no such thing exists.
So, my resolution is to Live For The Day! Seems easy enough doesn't it? No more worrying about tomorrow until it gets here (within reason of course, I am much to careful to just throw caution to the wind and become wild and carefree)I am going to learn something new this year and enjoy each day as it comes. I am going to live more "in the moment" and appreciate every minute I have left (not that I haven't but my mindset was on survival and not being joyous). I am going to project positivity and strength. I am going to live!
Have you thought of your resolution for the new year? If so, do tell!